the last words

“I love you”, said harry, “But we are not meant for each other. I know you want to talk a little bit more, but that’s how it will always be ‘a little more’. You have hurt me, my feelings. I cannot begin to explain to you what went wrong because there was a lot. You are a wonderful person and I would wish you that you find someone who would put up with you. You are difficult, you are amazingly impossible. You have lied to me time and time again. You fight on the craziest topics. You don’t understand things. You think that I signed a contract with you to spend every waking and sleeping minute of my life with you. You are just too much. I love you now and I will love you forever; but I am leaving and I am leaving for good. It will be my suggestion to you that you move on and start your life with someone else. I can promise you one thing… YOU ARE THE LAST GIRL IN MY LIFE. I can’t even imagine to love someone else. If you want we can be friends but nothing more. I am sorry but this is the end”.

The wind came along and swooped away everything with it, what was left of me. As my tears flew in the wind, I let go of all those things that looked so ordinary to me, my whole life, life with him, life of love. Things like beautiful memories, the laughs, the tears, the jealousy, the stolen kisses and dreams of a beautiful future, a typical white picket fence dream, and all other things; but when you put all of them together, they made up my life which was one of a kind. It’s not so hard to die if you know you have lived and boy o boy did I live…………… How I lived.

It was painful and still is. I was speechless; but I did respond with a promise of my own. It was difficult to put together words to deliver my promise to him; so I did all I could, “I love you and.. and I always will, and I promise you this too… YOU WILL …. YOU WILL BE THE LAST GUY IN MY LI….” I couldn’t finish, I broke into tears.

“Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.”
― J.M. Barrie